March 17, 2012
I cannot even begin to tell you how stressful this week has been. It felt like one of the longest weeks of my life! My day job is great and quite fun like 90% of the time, in fact most of the time I think "I can't believe I get paid for this!" But this week was photoshoot week and normally I am super ecstatic about doing editorials and lookbooks... but when you've got 8 hours to shoot SIX (that's right SIX) editorials in one day...and shoot over 400 samples the next day... topped off with a boss who decides to go ballistic hyper micro managing and screams at you in front of everyone during the shoot that you've screwed up... that equals to MELTDOWN.

behind the scenes never shows the drama...

Did I totally go to the bathroom and cry? Yes, yes I did. Did I totally get even more pissed off when everyone kept trying to console me therefore making it worse. Yup, you betcha. I eventually had to pull a little bit of a bitch card, "I don't want to talk about it, I have to do my job, so let's just get on with it, ok?"

You know you see those reality tv fashion shows and you see that one person just lose it and you're sitting at home all comfy shaking your head thinking "drama, drama, drama"... that's exactly how this was. I'm the person you're shaking your head at.

Needless to say, it wasn't my shiniest moment.

But thankfully, this week is O-V-E-R! Forwards and on wards little lady! Sometimes when I'm really down I have to remember there are people out there to help pick me up. But I also remember I need to know how to pick myself up and put myself together when shit is going down and I have a job to do.


  1. That sucks~ I'm always sad to hear about someone's day from Hell :-(
    We all have 'em, though...if it's any consolation!
    The important thing is that you seem strong and like you have a great attitude and that's all that matters! Remember to look at the big picture...days like that will just be a tiny blip when you look back at your life later...what you'll remember are the great days and real relationships and the great work you did! and never be ashamed to cry. It's real emotion and just means you are a sensitive and artistic person.
    Chin up, Buttercup :-)

  2. Oh have I been there and done that, I totally feel for you! I managed a series of television shoots for a rather large sporting event that's a national pride thing over here in Wales and I ended up in tears on most of them. An entire week of hell, stress, illness and severe unhappiness, but thankfully like you the rest of the time is great fun! I hope it's a long time before you have one of those days again!

  3. I like to tell myself that these crap days are there to remind us of how great the rest of the time is. Hope you get a stress free break over the weekend. x Fran

  4. i totally relate to this post! I had an embarrassing crying melt down just the same a few months ago. The props guy yelled at me on set in front of the whole crew undermining my position (set costumer) where I immediately left set, ran back to the wardrobe office and broke down crying. Then a handful of people came into console me...equally as embarrassing as the incident. So trust me, I get it!

    I have been trying to get my vintage shop off the ground for a few years now but life & work get in the way (I lost my vintage stock in storage a couple of years ago and I'm just now rebuilding my collection). I read your blog to keep me going...your ups and downs, highs and lows, business triumphs, and gorgeous photos are a definite inspiration for me.

    Your shop is so beautiful that I have complete confidence it will soon be your day job, so hang it there! :)

  5. I am going through the same at the moment! I work 2 jobs, study full time uni and have an internship. life can get so stressful, it's really hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But hey, next week is a fresh start and your boss might praise you with compliments :) You're doing so well, awesome job, successful vintage business, so well done and good luck :) hope you have a better week xx

  6. I'm so sorry Rodellee! This whole post reminds me a lot of myself- but I think I melt under pressure way more than you do. :) that to say- I'm rooting for you!

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  8. Oh man! i know the feeling, but i'm glad you got through it. You should know that I just happened upon your blog/boutique, and love it. So, at least you're inspiring others despite the 10%-day-job-sucky times.

    keep on keepin' on.


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