May 7, 2012
If you're not into reading the personal going ons of the gal behind Adorevintage...then move on, this post isn't for you.

But if you are... I'll keep this short and quick.

It's bittersweet.

Question: So...what happened to my domain? Why is it dead?
Answer: My ex is a gigantic asshole. (I KNOW you're reading this, that's right YOU ARE A SAD MAN!) He decided to delete my site. And a bunch of other sites I had registered, built, and maintained all because he's a depressed fuck. Can you tell I hate him? I hate him with every fibre of my being!

Ok, moving on...

Last week I was majorly stressed at the day job. So much I broke out in hives on Friday. (It happened another time... coincidentally when I was dealing with my divorce last summer) Then I thought I'd better relax by getting down with Nature. Clearly Nature was not being cool with me as I broke out with bites all over. So hives + bites + stress = totally not cool.

I missed a few days of work, have been on meds, and ON TOP of all of it life decided to throw me ANOTHER curve ball in the love department. Not even going to go there.

But, whatever...I had a really good, really hard cry in the tub while the cold shower rained over me (since hot water made my skin burn like drops of fire!). I was completely wailing and having a freak out "WHY DO YOU HAAAAAAATE ME GODDDDD!!!" then I slept for what seemed like ages.

Suffice it to say I'm a lot better. Now anyway. :)

So if you're going through some shit, keep going. Coz shit stinks!



25 comments:

  1. sounds like a total jerk - random, but i totally broke out in hives the other week (not a common thing) and i can only attribute it to stress. :( chin up!

    ReplyDelete
  2. OMG! That is so insane and vicious! So sorry you experienced that.. I really can't believe stuff like that actually happens, but I guess it does.

    Don't get too down on yourself, because you'll only be letting the negative people in your life win. Don't give them that power. You have an amazing business and it will continue to grow into something even more amazing!

    I have a theory that good and bad things happen in clusters, or like all at the same time. Seems like this is happening to you, but the good stuff will happen all at once too. You'll see.

    Keep your head up girl!

    xoxo,
    Leah
    www.couturearabesque.com

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you so much for your sweet compliment! I hope your theory is right! So much bad has been happening, it's time for some goodness! :)

      Delete
  3. Quite simply, and quite frankly, I really appreciate this post. Not because you were/are going through the ringer, but precisely because it's personal and it takes courage to let that out which in turns brings us closer to you. So here's a "virtual hug". :)

    ReplyDelete
  4. Just wanted to share with you that I truly feel I know your pain. A friend once told me life was like the ocean; things come in waves as mentioned above. Some days dealing with my condition is ever expending & it's all I can do to get out of bed & list one item on Etsy. and I too think "Why me God?"
    But I know now that we all are here to serve a purpose & it's up to us to shape our experiences into a positive light.

    know you are thought well of & admired~

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you so much whomever you may be anonymous :D

      Your kind and encouraging words really did me some good, I appreciate it!

      Delete
  5. Like stated above & I say it all the time "don't give anyone your power"! You worked at this blog & your business. Chin up girl your wave of happiness is coming & you need to see it when it does:)
    hugs & kisses
    xo

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks Monica! I'm waiting for that wave! :)

      Delete
  6. What an asshole, why would he hit you below the belt like that? I'm glad you had yourself the needed good cry and now you're doing your own thang. So glad you got things back going. Hope you're feeling better.

    ReplyDelete
  7. Stay strong, sweet thing!!! Like my mom always says, "Living well is the best revenge." Stay healthy, stay busy and keep moving forward.

    Kisses and huge hugs!!

    ReplyDelete
  8. Awww that sounds horrible. But happy to hear you are doing better! :)

    ReplyDelete
  9. oh no what a loser!!! how frustrating for you - i loved your site!! keep at it and dont let it get to you...its what he would want...nasty!((hugs))

    ReplyDelete
  10. ...But your back, so keep on going honey it will get better and your doing really well in your life. Take care of yourself and we are all here if you need to let of some steam. Have a bloody wonderful week darling. ax

    ReplyDelete
  11. Oh honey, what a complete and utter shit, I can't believe some humans!!! GEEZ! How completely selfish! I am glad you appear to have fixed your website problems! I hope you continue to revive and get better in all other areas too! lots of love from Scotland Zoë xxx

    ReplyDelete
  12. Oh I just realized your website isn't working again, you have your etsy up though! Damn, I hope you get that fixed soon sweetheart! x

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I know... I am working on getting a new domain!

      Delete
  13. There's a saying I've read that says "learn to live like the lotus, untouched by filthy water." You seem like a talented, amazing person, so don't let all of your ex's filthy water get you down! Just get your lotus on! Best of luck <3

    ReplyDelete
  14. Oh no! I dont even know you but I have been there girl.
    Living Well is the Best Form of Revenge. You keep getting on that horse and being your awesome self, hives or no hives and let people be there own demise.
    xoxoxoxox
    ab

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you so much! Love that "hives or no hives" :P

      Delete
  15. I've been through a lot of horrible breakups, too, so I feel your pain! I'm sorry you're going through an ugly time. It sucks. It really does.

    One thing I've learned, though, is that when people do shitty things (and taking away your domains is definitely an incredibly shitty thing to do) they are usually trying to communicate with you. Either communication has broken down between you two so much that he doesn't know how else to reach you, or he doesn't know how to communicate well in the first place. It could be a combination of both. Like you calling him a "sad little man" -- it's a way to get through to him instead of just working things out rationally.

    I think it might do you both some good to talk about why he's doing these things and to figure out how to resolve it because serious breakups could have lasting negative effects for months... years... believe me, I know it! It'll bleed into your future relationships if you don't resolve issues, bury it, and stick a little cross into the dirt.

    There's always two sides of the story so maybe he's got some real beef with you similar to how you have some legit beef with him. Be strong, tackle it head on, move on with your life, and keep that gorgeous head up, lady. It's going to be better from here on out. :)

    (Also, try some pure aloe on the hives! It helps with mine.)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you for your kind words and advice :D

      I'll have to try the aloe!

      Delete
  16. Hi! Found your blog because of my love for all things vintage.. and then I read this post and thought wow! I went through the same crap! Except he drained my bank account instead of websites. And hives are most certainly due to stress- they've only shown up on me during some messed up times. Did you get benadryl shots? Those worked for me.

    So hopefully by now you've regained some strength and feel better. But don't feel any regret about him. People who do maniacal stuff like that are people you do not want around. Besos!

    ReplyDelete
  17. You are a long time inspiration/ role model of mine! I've been following your blog since you were in San Diego and even though I don't know you personally it's been amazing seeing your business grow. And you deserve nothing but the best and to be with someone who supports your work. Keep up the good work Rodelle. =) xo

    ReplyDelete
  18. My heart goes out to you and thank you for sharing your life & thoughts here! I'm assuming you doing much better as this was posted weeks ago now. btw I'm not sure if you keep up your Flickr acct. but I use to follow your photostream there. All my best <3

    Tye
    http://www.lagelledailydose.blogspot.com

    ReplyDelete

Thank you for taking the time to leave me a little comment, I do try to respond back as often as I can. Have a lovely day! xoxo - Rodellee